Life for rent

"Life For Rent"

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine


I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine


While my heart is a shield
And I won't let it down
While I'm so afraid to fail
That I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive?
-Sang by Dido


I don't know why I am so afraid to fall in love again, yet so eagerly waiting for that to happen.
Or I am in love already but don't want to accept.
Confused soul I am, as usual.