To my "Little Bit Of Love"

Hi,
I saw you in my dream today morning. You were here with me in my city. It seemed to me we were enjoying a lot. I was showing you places. And then there was a moment when I was trying to express through some body sign or something(i couldn't gather or remember) that I like you but you acted like an ignorant though you were enjoying and understanding every bit of emotions I was feeling for you. You smiled alone but you couldn't hide it from me as it was my dream(lol).
Well when I am awake I don't feel anything strong or unstable for you. In short I never feel crazy about you. But still I go back to you again and again. May be that is because I never expect anything back from you. Not even a life long friendship anymore.

But who knows what is there in my subconscious mind. I am not worried about it either. Because I know if something is there that will remain and never punish me. Because This time it is different. Different from every feelings I have been through or I have known. I felt bliss and found an endless sky to fly around.

The only thing I don't like is when I talk and you don't. Now you don't give me your silence even.

Now you are like those contented silent mountains for me to whom I can just stare. I can't reach you or share things with you coz you are a faraway friend now. But I don't regret feeling for you. For the first time my silence found an other silence so it will remain there always till my memory ditches me physically.

I will remain a friend forever. Thanks for everything and every moments we shared.


Warm regards,

How can a man know what a woman's life is?

How can a man know what a woman's life is? A woman's life is quite different from a man's. A man is the same from the time of circumcision to the time of his withering. He is the same before he has sought out a woman for the first time, and afterwards. But the day a woman enjoys her first love cuts her in two. She becomes another woman on that day. The man is the same after his first love as he was before. The woman is from the first day of her first love another. That continues all through life. The man spends a night by a woman and goes away. His life and body are always the same. The woman conceives. As a mother she is another person than the woman without a child. She carries the fruit of her womb for nine long months in her body. Something grows. Something grows into her life that never again departs from it. She is a mother. She is and remains a mother even though her child dies, though all her children die. For at one time she carried the child under her heart. And it does not go out of her heart ever again. Not even when it is dead. All this the man does not know; he knows nothing.

Love, as you feel like

Love is love as long as you consider it to be love. That is all that is required. Perception is reality.
You can be happy even if your life is a wreck, and everything is falling apart, as long as you feel like you're happy.
You can be in love even if you have nothing in common with someone and have no real mutual understanding, as long as you feel like you're in love.

I feel I am in love but I am not sure why I feel this way. I feel the bliss of Love often now. I feel so happy with myself. When I watch lovers in any movie or in real life I feel so happy for them. And I feel great that at least I can feel the warmth of love around me. No matter if I don't have any so called boyfriend. I have got many friends with whom I can share my life or my family who is always there beside me. I feel lucky enough.

I love this world now. I love my life and people around me.

I am in love. Love with myself.

"I Walk Alone"

I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
Of what anybody thinks
Of what anybody says
About the way
About the way I am
So I'll wait until the day
When those feelings fade away
Then I'll make my break

I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
So I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out our dreams
Living out

Everybody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone, yeah I walk alone, yeah
Living blissfully

I guess you had to step away
To make me want to be
A bigger man, a bigger man than that
I need you by my side
As I take it all in stride
I put away, I put away my pride
Oh I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out?

Everybody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone
Yeah I walk alone, yeah
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk, oh yeah

Maula mere, maula mere... Film: Anwar

maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere….

aankhein teri, kitni haseen
ki inka aashiq, mein ban gaya hoon
mujhko basa le, inme tu

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

ki inka aashiq, mein ban gaya hoon
mujhko basa le, inme tu

mujhse yeh har ghadi, mera dil kahe
tum hi ho uski aarzoo,

mujhse yeh har ghadi, mere lab kahe
teri hi ho sab guftagoo

baatein teri itni haseen, mein yaad inko jab karta hoon
phoolon si aaye, khusboo

Rakh loon chhupa ke mein kahin tujhko
saaya bhi tera na main doon
rakh loon bana ke kahin ghar, mein tujhe
saath tere, mein hi rahoon

julfen teri, itni ghani
dekh ke inko, yeh sochta hoon
saaye me, inke mein jiyoon

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

ishq hai…
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere…..

mera dil yahi bola, mera dil yahi bola,
yaara raaj yeh usne hai mujh par khola
ki hai ishq mohabbat, jiske dil main
usko pasand karta hai maula

mera dil yahi bola, mera dil yahi bola,
yaara raaj yeh usne hai mujh par khola
ki hai ishq mohabbat, jiske dil main
usko pasand karta hai maula

Existence

Sometime I feel like to disappear. Disappear in darkness. Want to feel the feeling of not being anything, feeling of not living any life, feeling of not being alive.

But it doesn't feel anything with no existence. That's why I stop myself.

If You Think You Know How To Love Me

A breathless drive on a downtown street
Motorbike ride in the mid-day heat
The dust that hung from the desert skies
Run, though we run it still burned our eyes

Oh, yes we can walk on the wild, wild side of life
And our movements traced by a stranger close by your side
And in the shadows of a promise, you can take my hand
And show me the way to understand

So if you think you know how to love me
And you think you know what I need
And if you really, really want me to stay
You've got to lead the way
Yes, if you think you know how to love me
And you think you can stand by me
And if you really, really want me to stay
You've got to lead the way

A reckless night in a nameless town
And we moved out of sight, with a silent sound
A beach that wept with deserted waves
That's where we slept, knowing we'd be safe

Now you may think you can walk on the wild, wild side with me
But there's a lot I can learn, and a lot that I've yet to see
You know you've got my life lying in your hands
It's up to you to make me understand.